werites | it's been x days since takasen

[ it's fine it's not like taka wants to talk about it either

but he watches senri scramble away, not getting up from his spot since his closet is still close enough to senri's they'd still have to awkwardly interact.

he wonders if senri is dating someone, and then decides that he isn't if he slept with taka like that because senri may have a lot of negative attributes but a cheater is not one of them. and then taka scolds himself for even thinking about something that isn't any of his business anymore. ]

... mm, he probably would.

Right? I hear he only got more vicious and moody now that Ryugasaki-senpai graduated! How is that possible?!

[sure this is a safe topic.

because senri is changing at the speed of light because once he's properly dressed then he can get out of the room, you know?? he's reaching for his phone the second that he's done and his expression lights up as he scrolls through all his texts. he doesn't actually pay attention to the time.

it's as he's slipping on his shoes that he glances over his shoulder to taka - ]

You'll be good for breakfast?

[ - and then his expression twitches as he remembers that he never bothered to ask taka that before they started dating, because it didn't matter if they were going to eat together or not]

[ ah

he just shrugs casually, still not moving from the couch. he probably should actually get up to start getting dressed since he actually has things to do before class starts, but he seems to be staying put until senri actually leaves the room. ]

Mmhm. I eat with Touji.

[ more like touji started forcing taka to get breakfast with him after he and senri broke up. but it's not like senri needs to know that, and he only brings it up because he's bound to run into touji picking him up one of these days. ]

[senri's first thought: well that's good, touji's too gay for mikekado-senpai to try anything
senri's second thought: even if he did, i'm cuter
senri's third thought: wait.

he blinks for a second as these conflicting thoughts slam through his head and he finds that he can't actually give voice to any of them.]

... oh, that's—

['nice', he should probably say 'nice'.

but his phone goes off at that moment, and he jumps on the chance to be distracted. he brings his phone up to his ear and starts his conversation just a little too loudly]

Hello, hello, Nito Senri here! Yeah, I'm back on campus - how much did you miss me?

[aaaaand he's out]

He is so fucking loud.

[ he mostly says it out loud to fill in the silence after senri leaves, and it feels nice to insult senri after all of that. like things could go back to normal, maybe, whatever "normal" might be for them now.

but once he's sure that senri isn't going to suddenly walk by in, he grabs the blanket that senri covered them with, brings it to his face, and breathes in it. it smells faintly of senri, and taka knows that this is probably creepy but it helps calm his nerves down a little.

and then he lets go, so he can get dressed and get dragged out by touji and go on about his day as usual. ]

[senri's day is busy and the funny thing is that there's no way that he could've seen all these people in a short amount of time if he was still dating Taka. his morning is spent hanging out with people outside of the special class, eating breakfast with them and chatting about what he missed, and he kicks off their first class with dramatically leaping into Yuma's arms and knocking the both of them over - and Touji who tried to help.

lunchtime he meets the new first years and doesn't leave them alone until they call him Senpai. he also gives out the tons of gifts that he collected from London to everyone else in the special class - well, except for Taka. but he hopes no one notices, and no one mentions.

he avoids going back to their room for as long as he can, filling up his day with other reunions, but eventually he has to go back if he wants to even vaguely start unpacking.

since he's home before Taka he assumes it's fine if he reaches into his luggage to pull out the clothes he stole from his then-boyfriend for his trip, and just. quietly try to put them back in Taka's closet without talking about it]

[ when taka comes back, he pauses at the door when he hears senri shuffling around before he actually sees him. even though he was very aware of senri's presence at school, he's still surprised to find him in the dorm. he guesses he's just gotten so used to the quiet.

his guitar is slung over his back after practice, so he just goes to set it aside as far from anything that senri might need to grab as possible. he's annoyed; he hadn't expected senri to try talking to him at school. hell, taka also actively avoided him. but the flaunting of the souvenirs as he skipped over taka was aggravating and later on some of his followers approached him to console him since they somehow found out about it.

mostly though, he just says nothing to senri. ]

[it's kind of funny - even before they were dating, their room was never quiet. but as senri unpacks with his earphones in, he ignores taka as much as humanly possible. taka's clothes are returned to him and senri works on doing the same with his own wardrobe.

it's just - there's a box that's in his way.

and everyone else got a bunch of gifts, sure. yuma got a whole scrapbook of reference pictures that senri specifically took, even returning to the same spot at different times to get the lighting changes. touji got a book of shakespeare's love sonnets. yanagi a small print of a garden from a museum. mikage and chizuru a bunch of candy. minato a scarf, yuni a hair barette, kasuka some incense. shinya a soccer jersey, shigure a special threatening-looking letter opener.

but none of them compare to the sizable Box of things that senri picked up for taka. he picks up one item from them as he pulls out his earphones and pauses.]

.... you know, I couldn't really show this off in front of everyone else, because they'd get suuuuper jealous.

[he'll break the silence as he walks over, book in hand]

And I - uh, got it before we...

[that's a lie also.

given that it's some rare edition of a sherlock holmes collection, and senri initially bought it super excitedly while out with a friend, until said friend had to remind him that he was no longer dating taka, and he proceeded to have a breakdown in the middle of the street

anyway he's handing it out to taka]

But it's not like I could return it, so!

[he totally could've

it's fine]

[ it's very unfortunate that when taka gets very excited about something, he reverts to a little kid

because when he turns to see what senri is holding out, his eyes immediately light up and he shoots over to him to take the book. he starts to flip through the pages, as if inspecting it's the real deal, and he starts talking very quickly, ]

Holy shit! Where did you get this? Do you have any idea how hard this is to find? If you look for it online it's like fifty times the normal price, it's insane, and it's in perfect condition, how did you--

[ and then he remembers who he's talking to, and just as suddenly as he started talking, he stops

and awkwardly lets his hands, with the book still in them, drop down in front of him. ]

Uh. Thanks.

[haha yeah

he doesn't want to think about how much he paid for it

but he blinks plainly when taka seems to immediately put a stopper on his excited reaction.]

.... uh-huh.

[and like - senri gets it! 'thanks' is really the only thing he can expect from his boyfrien- ex. from his ex. he shouldn't have wanted for anything more than that, like a hug, or a kiss or - ]

Yup, you're welcome!

[and he'll turn back to his closet to keep unpacking but like. more bitterly now apparently,,]

[ it's fine?? it's fine.

taka will just... walk over to the table so he can sift through the book. he does eventually close it and sets it aside for later, mostly because it feels awkward?? whether or not he notices senri's discontent is up in the air since

even if he did, he won't bring it up like he normally would. the last thing he wants to do right now is start a fight considering how their last fight ended. ]

[senri hates how he can't help but sneak a peek over to taka as he's reading, and how he hopes that he really does like the book, and how he wants him to enjoy it like the nerd that he is

and then he picks up the box of other shit he got for taka and angrily tosses it into his closet and slams the doors a bit more roughly than he would otherwise, because he's mad that he can't give it to his boyfriend to kill him because he doesn't have a boyfriend anymore

his phone goes off again and he picks it up - and it's small talk for a bit where he stubbornly keep his back to taka, up until it gets to planning some time to meet up and

senri oh so casually leans back against his desk and watches taka out of the corner of his eye]

Sure, let's make it a date!

[senri: ya ofc i wanna get over him
senri: i should get over him so loudly just to see if he notices]

[ it's a good thing taka put the book down because he would have definitely dropped it right then

and like, taka is very aware that senri had gone on dates in london. he's seen the statuses until he had to mute senri's accounts, and then people would bring it up to him. oh, he's awful isn't he, shishimaru-kun? he's just showing off! and while taka understood why they would tell him this, it just made him angrier to be pitied

so. he's not entirely surprised by this, but it still pisses him off that senri would have the nerve to flaunt it like this. he actually starts to reach for the book to flat out throw it at his head, but he manages to instead step away from the table. ]

Tch... horny rabbit.

[ it's fine? it's fine.

although now the insult is said much more harshly than the last time he did. ]

[PLEASE, THIS BOOK DID NOTHING TO DESERVE THIS

but senri seems to ignore taka's comment as he finishes up making his plans - just tomorrow, just for dinner, it's... just a theater friend so senri doesn't think it's actually romantic at all he just wanted to use the word to piss taka off.

apparently it worked.

he hangs up and tilts his head as he faces taka.]

Isn't this what you wanted? For me to find someone who can actually take care of me?

["... you'd be a lot happier with someone else anyway" was what taka said - and senri hasn't been able to forget it. the resignation, the acceptance that he didn't want to try anymore, the way it broke his heart into tiny little pieces that he still hasn't quite fit back together

... though the irony is that senri hasn't found that yet, no matter how hard he's looked.]

It's what you wanted, too.

[ he would say more, he almost does, but he reels it in. he's still trying to avoid a fight because he's honestly scared of what he might say if he gets angry for real here, and that's bound to happen if they start to seriously argue.

there are a lot of things he's wanted to say to senri over the last few months, and he doesn't plan on saying any of them.

it's not a lie if he doesn't say anything at all, right? ]

It's - what?

[his grip on his phone tightens so much that it might nearly break - up until he forces himself to relax.

but the shock is clearly written on his face and - maybe taka isn't completely wrong. maybe senri did want someone to take care of him, but there's one clear difference between them and that's the fact that he always thought taka could be that person. maybe if senri got a little easier to take care of, or maybe taka tried just a little bit more -

'I just wanted you, you stupid asshole.'

he wants to say it - he doesn't, because he doesn't want to admit to it.

and instead he just roughly shakes his head and walks past him, headed over the tv.

he doesn't want to do this again.]

You were getting tired of bending backwards for me.

[ he quotes it coolly, evenly. he almost went with another line, the "i could've had anyone," one, but thinking about that particular one still hurts too much.

still. he doesn't want this to become a fight, so he'll go to gather his things so he can hop into the shower. he wonders idly if senri is still a morning shower person or if that changed in europe, and the only reason he doesn't chastise himself for thinking about it is because they're roommates and it might come up eventually. ]

[ - that makes him wince.

because there were plenty of things that he said that were rude, that were unwarranted, and that's one of them. he said it in a fit of anger, and even then he knew that it was a lie. it was something that made sense at the time, but....

he shakes his head, because whatever - they're... broken up. and that realization is settling on senri the longer that he's back, because they're not just on a break. they're not just going to make up as easy as breathing. they're not going to gravitate back together the way that they're supposed to, because they're not meant to be together.

it doesn't mean he has to like it.

but he'll rub at his face before going to sit in front of the tv anyway, putting in an old game that he hasn't touched since he left - just to try to settle into something familiar that has less to do with taka]

[ he takes a much longer shower than he usually does because he doesn't want to go back to that room.

he thought he prepared himself for senri being back, but it's... hard. being reminded of him every day just by waking up and seeing his stuff was hard. but seeing the actual living, breathing person is torture, and taka doesn't know if he wants to hit him or kiss him.

which actually was the general mood while they were still dating, except now taka can't really do either without a major consequence.

but he can't delay it any longer so he eventually leaves the bathroom. when he spots senri on the couch though, he has a... problem. because that's where he sleeps. he hasn't slept in his bed in months, and he's not really sure if he'll be able to now yet.

but he can't sit where senri is, so he just goes to put his uniform away. ]

[it's annoying - how time passes and senri thinks it's odd that taka takes longer showers now. when did he start that habit? why? is he washing his hair more often? admittedly senri does like the smell of taka's shampoo -

and then he kills a monster whose health bar was already in red with a special attack, making it totally overkill. it makes him feel a little better.

but senri isn't sleepy at all, thanks to jet lag and still not adjusting to timezones. he also doesn't seem to really notice taka operating around him, or maybe he's trying specifically to ignore him, and that's why his eyes are still glued to the screen as he takes up most of the couch]

[ this is fine?

taka isn't really that tired, but he doesn't want to leave the room again and he doesn't want to do anything that would attract the attention of senri. so he decides to just go to bed instead, and puts on his headphones to try to drown the noise out

and he

is not falling asleep. ]

[you know, senri doesn't think it's weird - though he does look up the stairs to where taka's sleeping and pouts briefly. he wants to crawl in to sleep too... even if he can't actually fall asleep right away, he wants to cuddle with taka and.

he wants to be not broken up anymore.

but it's not something he can fix just by himself, so he sighs and just presses his face into a pillow briefly before clocking in more hours on his game. he thinks about grabbing a blanket soon.... maybe after this boss.]

[ eventually, taka gives up. his bed hadn't felt comfortable since he and senri broke up, and he was hoping that him being around again would fix that, but it hasn't.

he comes back down, his headphones still in, and he pauses at the foot of the stairs. there's still enough time so that he could pretend he came down for something else-- a glass of water, the bathroom, literally anything else

but in the end he goes to the couch and squeezes into the small space that senri isn't taking up. he tries to play it off like he's watching senri play until he closes his eyes. ]

[ . . . . senri pauses and squints.]

... do you need something?

[because they're. not dating anymore? so it's not like taka is here to just hang out with him, and it's not a game that they play together.

so.]

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