[ well he needs senri to get up and go to bed, but he's not going to say that? the truth is too embarrassing to admit, and he really can't think of a good enough excuse as to why he's here.
he's quiet for a moment, before suddenly standing up and heading towards the front door. ]
I'm going to the kitchen.
[ there's no need to announce it. but taka is mostly hoping that senri will be done by the time he comes back, and then taka can quietly retake the couch without getting questioned about it. ]
[ . . . . no, he'd still get questioned about it. and senri just tilts his head at taka's announcement anyway. because - there's no need to tell him? there's not an offer to get him anything anyway.....
but senri
will not be up by the time that taka comes back from the kitchen. he's definitely still playing his game, but he's also... scooted over slightly on the couch so that there's room for taka if he wants to join him properly, and he's adjusted his sitting position so he can lay down in case he gets tired without touching senri too much
.... maybe he just wants to be close too, it's fine]
taka just stares at him for a few seconds before reluctantly going to sit back down. he's mostly hoping that senri won't ask again? he wonders if he can say he wants to play a game too, except if that were true he probably would have said so already so that's also suspicious
senri watches taka for a second - before shaking his head and shifting quietly again so that there's more space for him too, so they're properly sharing the couch again. it's just what he would've done when they were dating and... they're not dating again, but it's hard to break old, ingrained habits
he keeps playing his game because - even if he goes back to his own bed, something tells him he won't be able to sleep anyway]
well, it's not fine. taka definitely feels like he can fall asleep now, but he's not, mostly because he is so very aware of how close senri is. he can reach out and brush against him if he really wanted to, and he does want to--
he doesn't of course. he just keeps his eyes shut in the hopes that he'll become less aware of his ex and fall asleep. ]
... but after a little while of taka's eyes being closed, he does glance over to see if he's asleep. and he watches. and waits. and... slowly but surely comes to realize that taka might just. sleep on the couch. and that's why he wasn't saying anything. he might deadass sleep here instead of his own bed, and that's why he wasn't in his bed the night before and
senri is tired of him.
. . .
he gets up, but doesn't turn his game off.
rather, he just runs up the stairs briefly to grab taka's blankets from his bed and carries them down the stairs, throwing them over taka. and then he crawls in next to him, brings his controller back into his hands, and is ready to keep playing his game just like this]
well, now he definitely can't open his eyes. his cheeks heat up though, and he really hopes he's not blushing significantly enough for it to be noticed. then he finally just shifts slightly, so that his face is pointed away from senri. it's fine. it can just be that the sudden added weight on top of him made him stir. it's fine.
mostly he just wonders what the fuck does this even mean ]
but that's always been a fact. he freezes for a second when taka shifts, and he flinches like he's gonna wait for taka to yell at him for doing this shit, sort of like how he expected taka to yell at him for claiming to sleepwalk this morning but.
nope, he just settles in once it doesn't seem like taka's going to strangle him.
and he'll get up once more to turn out all the lights, but otherwise will probably fall asleep gaming
[ senri nito is going to be the death of him one way or another.
but eventually taka does allow himself to settle against senri, and he does eventually fall asleep like that, as he pretends that this is normal.
it's funny, and sad, because taka knows a breakup isn't the end of the world. and it wasn't; life continued on. but it shifted his world just enough that he never felt like it would ever be the same again, like he lost his footing and couldn't fix it in time before he fell. but, for the first time in months, the world looks a little more like it used to.
and it's terrifying because it's not supposed to. ]
because in his sleep senri lets go of the controller and automatically turns toward taka, because taka is warm and he ends up pressed against him and clinging on just like he always did, because senri is needy even in his sleep. he nestles in there because it feels like coming home, and it feels as easy as breathing, and he
will panic in the morning.
because he's pretty sure that makes it too obvious and reveals something that he's always known and just tried to deny even to himself -
he just didn't want to admit that he's still in love with taka, even after all this time]
[senri is even more tired than he was the day before.
taka moves and his immediate reaction is to move too - but closer, burying his face in taka's neck and clinging on as stubbornly as he always has because - ]
Takaaa, it's the weekend.
[it really does feel so painfully familiar and he's tired enough that he doesn't even think twice. the familiar nickname rolls off his tongue as per every Saturday, he doesn't want to get up to face the day until he absolutely has to]
his first reaction is to want to push senri off of him, except that's battling his second one which is to bring him closer and pretend like nothing ever happened.
except something did, and the more they avoid it the harder this is going to get.
but taka doesn't want to move in fear of waking senri. he wonders if he can just pretend to be asleep again until senri wakes up, so they can both act as if none of this happened. except taka is fully aware of how long senri can sleep in for and that means he might be trapped here for hours.
so he just moves to sit up, hoping that the movement won't wake senri up entirely so he won't notice what happened ]
[initially, he protests. because of course he does. so many weekend mornings were lost to the fact that nothing could stop senri from bodily climbing on top of taka in order to keep him in one place so that he could just loaf and cuddle and kiss the morning away. so as taka moves, he makes a noise of protest again and tightens his hold -
until he wakes up just enough to remember
he shouldn't.
and he sort of forgets to breath for a second - until he improvises, and makes another grumbling noise but otherwise presses his face into the pillow and loosens his hold as if another wave of sleep hit him hard.
as opposed to the fact that he is very much awake and now acting his way through so he doesn't have to acknowledge what he did]
senri is awake but he pretends that he isn't, and once taka is far away enough from the couch he shifts so that he can entirely bury his face in his pillow because. he's sure that he's blushing all the way up to his ears. he thinks it's harder to breathe like this, but it's fine, because he kind of wants to die.
he doesn't understand anything.
are they really that stuck on old habits?
he doesn't stop taka from continuing on his day, and senri continue son with his. he hangs out with yuma for a little bit, and then the rest of his friends from every friend group that taka would have nothing to do with. he goes out to dinner with the friend he said he would and
comes back with a slice of cake for taka, because it's a cafe he went to often, and they knew that he always ordered extra to bring back to his boyfriend, but they didn't know they broke up.
so he comes back and... awkwardly places that on the table...]
[ taka eventually returns with his guitar again after practice. he's going through fan letters that his bandmate shoved onto him, so he doesn't even notice that senri made it before him at first.
except once he's taken enough steps inside the dorm he freezes and looks up to see and-- ah, yeah. there he is.
...
taka has no idea what the fuck to do in this situation until he remembers that senri was asleep and it's fine. it's fine? ]
but then he sees the fan letters? and he's gotten plenty of them before and he's so. irritated immediately. he'd heard that taka was in a bad and he'd remembered what taka said about emo guys being popular and even though he has no right he is very suddenly
spittingly
jealous
and that's why he's going to take up the whole couch again binch!
and stubbornly look away from taka bc he's annoyed]
taka glares at him before going to put his stuff away? it's like esp except instead of predicting the future taka can just tell when senri is annoyed, which then makes him annoyed too because fuck you.
when he passes by the couch again, he does not hold his tongue ]
taka is about to say something, but then changes his mind because it would be admitting that he kind of does and he really does not want to get into that.
—so we can't even have a conversation longer than two minutes anymore?!
[well, of course they can't. it's too tense and too stupid and senri stares at the cake that he left and makes a noise of frustration before he gets up to put it away in the kitchen.
but he is going to come back so he can occupy the couch again out of PROTEST]
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[ well he needs senri to get up and go to bed, but he's not going to say that? the truth is too embarrassing to admit, and he really can't think of a good enough excuse as to why he's here.
he's quiet for a moment, before suddenly standing up and heading towards the front door. ]
I'm going to the kitchen.
[ there's no need to announce it. but taka is mostly hoping that senri will be done by the time he comes back, and then taka can quietly retake the couch without getting questioned about it. ]
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but senri
will not be up by the time that taka comes back from the kitchen. he's definitely still playing his game, but he's also... scooted over slightly on the couch so that there's room for taka if he wants to join him properly, and he's adjusted his sitting position so he can lay down in case he gets tired without touching senri too much
.... maybe he just wants to be close too, it's fine]
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taka just stares at him for a few seconds before reluctantly going to sit back down. he's mostly hoping that senri won't ask again? he wonders if he can say he wants to play a game too, except if that were true he probably would have said so already so that's also suspicious
hm
he closes his eyes again. ]
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senri watches taka for a second - before shaking his head and shifting quietly again so that there's more space for him too, so they're properly sharing the couch again. it's just what he would've done when they were dating and... they're not dating again, but it's hard to break old, ingrained habits
he keeps playing his game because - even if he goes back to his own bed, something tells him he won't be able to sleep anyway]
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well, it's not fine. taka definitely feels like he can fall asleep now, but he's not, mostly because he is so very aware of how close senri is. he can reach out and brush against him if he really wanted to, and he does want to--
he doesn't of course. he just keeps his eyes shut in the hopes that he'll become less aware of his ex and fall asleep. ]
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he's definitely not.
... but after a little while of taka's eyes being closed, he does glance over to see if he's asleep. and he watches. and waits. and... slowly but surely comes to realize that taka might just. sleep on the couch. and that's why he wasn't saying anything. he might deadass sleep here instead of his own bed, and that's why he wasn't in his bed the night before and
senri is tired of him.
. . .
he gets up, but doesn't turn his game off.
rather, he just runs up the stairs briefly to grab taka's blankets from his bed and carries them down the stairs, throwing them over taka. and then he crawls in next to him, brings his controller back into his hands, and is ready to keep playing his game just like this]
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well, now he definitely can't open his eyes. his cheeks heat up though, and he really hopes he's not blushing significantly enough for it to be noticed. then he finally just shifts slightly, so that his face is pointed away from senri. it's fine. it can just be that the sudden added weight on top of him made him stir. it's fine.
mostly he just wonders what the fuck does this even mean ]
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but that's always been a fact. he freezes for a second when taka shifts, and he flinches like he's gonna wait for taka to yell at him for doing this shit, sort of like how he expected taka to yell at him for claiming to sleepwalk this morning but.
nope, he just settles in once it doesn't seem like taka's going to strangle him.
and he'll get up once more to turn out all the lights, but otherwise will probably fall asleep gaming
just like that]
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but eventually taka does allow himself to settle against senri, and he does eventually fall asleep like that, as he pretends that this is normal.
it's funny, and sad, because taka knows a breakup isn't the end of the world. and it wasn't; life continued on. but it shifted his world just enough that he never felt like it would ever be the same again, like he lost his footing and couldn't fix it in time before he fell. but, for the first time in months, the world looks a little more like it used to.
and it's terrifying because it's not supposed to. ]
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because in his sleep senri lets go of the controller and automatically turns toward taka, because taka is warm and he ends up pressed against him and clinging on just like he always did, because senri is needy even in his sleep. he nestles in there because it feels like coming home, and it feels as easy as breathing, and he
will panic in the morning.
because he's pretty sure that makes it too obvious and reveals something that he's always known and just tried to deny even to himself -
he just didn't want to admit that he's still in love with taka, even after all this time]
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because this weight against him is so familiar that taka actually just nestles more against senri, moving so that his arm wraps around him and-- ah
that makes him open his eyes. ]
Wha...
[ he didn't mean to say anything but it still comes out anyway ]
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taka moves and his immediate reaction is to move too - but closer, burying his face in taka's neck and clinging on as stubbornly as he always has because - ]
Takaaa, it's the weekend.
[it really does feel so painfully familiar and he's tired enough that he doesn't even think twice. the familiar nickname rolls off his tongue as per every Saturday, he doesn't want to get up to face the day until he absolutely has to]
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his first reaction is to want to push senri off of him, except that's battling his second one which is to bring him closer and pretend like nothing ever happened.
except something did, and the more they avoid it the harder this is going to get.
but taka doesn't want to move in fear of waking senri. he wonders if he can just pretend to be asleep again until senri wakes up, so they can both act as if none of this happened. except taka is fully aware of how long senri can sleep in for and that means he might be trapped here for hours.
so he just moves to sit up, hoping that the movement won't wake senri up entirely so he won't notice what happened ]
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until he wakes up just enough to remember
he shouldn't.
and he sort of forgets to breath for a second - until he improvises, and makes another grumbling noise but otherwise presses his face into the pillow and loosens his hold as if another wave of sleep hit him hard.
as opposed to the fact that he is very much awake and now acting his way through so he doesn't have to acknowledge what he did]
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when he doesn't, taka considers the coast clear and he'll get up. he doesn't actually start walking though, and instead he just
reaches down to brush the hair out of senri's face
and then he's quickly gone, off to brush his teeth and get dressed and do anything to distract himself from what just happened ]
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senri is awake but he pretends that he isn't, and once taka is far away enough from the couch he shifts so that he can entirely bury his face in his pillow because. he's sure that he's blushing all the way up to his ears. he thinks it's harder to breathe like this, but it's fine, because he kind of wants to die.
he doesn't understand anything.
are they really that stuck on old habits?
he doesn't stop taka from continuing on his day, and senri continue son with his. he hangs out with yuma for a little bit, and then the rest of his friends from every friend group that taka would have nothing to do with. he goes out to dinner with the friend he said he would and
comes back with a slice of cake for taka, because it's a cafe he went to often, and they knew that he always ordered extra to bring back to his boyfriend, but they didn't know they broke up.
so he comes back and... awkwardly places that on the table...]
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except once he's taken enough steps inside the dorm he freezes and looks up to see and-- ah, yeah. there he is.
...
taka has no idea what the fuck to do in this situation until he remembers that senri was asleep and it's fine. it's fine? ]
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but then he sees the fan letters? and he's gotten plenty of them before and he's so. irritated immediately. he'd heard that taka was in a bad and he'd remembered what taka said about emo guys being popular and even though he has no right he is very suddenly
spittingly
jealous
and that's why he's going to take up the whole couch again binch!
and stubbornly look away from taka bc he's annoyed]
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god he's so annoying.
taka glares at him before going to put his stuff away? it's like esp except instead of predicting the future taka can just tell when senri is annoyed, which then makes him annoyed too because fuck you.
when he passes by the couch again, he does not hold his tongue ]
Are you going to hog the couch every night?
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Just until my jet lag eases up - why, do you need it?
[because it's not like taka sleeps there every night, right
it's not like there's a super pressing reason why taka would want the couch instead of his desk or his bed
right]
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taka is about to say something, but then changes his mind because it would be admitting that he kind of does and he really does not want to get into that.
so he switches gears. ]
No, but you're not the only one who lives here.
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[he says as if he did not immediately move to accommodate taka so that they were sharing without any actual complaint in the moment]
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[ he actually doesn't really remember if he did or not, most of it was overshadowed by senri cuddling with him.
but whatever? taka will just storm upstairs to go to his bed. ]
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[well, of course they can't. it's too tense and too stupid and senri stares at the cake that he left and makes a noise of frustration before he gets up to put it away in the kitchen.
but he is going to come back so he can occupy the couch again out of PROTEST]
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it's so fine that taka is just going to play one of his cds
without headphones
loudly ]
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