werites | it's been x days since takasen

Ha?! I didn't even say anything!

[ he actually doesn't really remember if he did or not, most of it was overshadowed by senri cuddling with him.

but whatever? taka will just storm upstairs to go to his bed. ]

—so we can't even have a conversation longer than two minutes anymore?!

[well, of course they can't. it's too tense and too stupid and senri stares at the cake that he left and makes a noise of frustration before he gets up to put it away in the kitchen.

but he is going to come back so he can occupy the couch again out of PROTEST]

[ it's fine?? IT'S FINE!!!

it's so fine that taka is just going to play one of his cds

without headphones

loudly ]

[oh my god

senri hates him

but just for that he's not even going to put on a video game anymore

he swaps for a musical on netflix

and turns the volume

way up]

[ kasuka is literally going to fucking kill them

but taka is just going to raise his own volume to as loud as it can get and

yeah they're just going to be murdered there is no other alternative here ]

[they're absolutely going to get murdered

admittedly senri is going to go first seeing as he's on the first floor and kasuka will fucking slowly appear over the edge of the couch like he's out of a horror game and senri will

scream like a little baby

i hate that this has happened in dream!ing so this isn't even a joke tag this is a real thing that can and will happen]

[ yeah this is bad

taka actually goes to peer down at senri to see how he's actually reacting to this all and he notices their door

slowly opening

because he forgot to lock it.

and he is very quickly turning his music off. ]

Ahh, I'm sorry, senpai, don't curse me - noooooooo!!

[senri has been sacrificed for the sake of taka's emoass music]

[ TAKA IS NOT GOING DOWN THERE TO HELP AT ALL

HE MAY BE IN LOVE BUT HE AIN'T FUCKING STUPID

GOODBYE FOREVER, SENRI ]

[yeah he's fucking dead

even when kasuka leaves there's just fucking silence

and senri is going to be curled up on the couch just bc he's petrified

or maybe

dead]

[ he just

peers over the edge again

..............

should he go down? kasuka might still come back.......

he slowly makes his way downstairs. ]

[that's fine

senri has passed out from fear]

[ welp

he pokes senri to see if he's awake?? and when he doesn't stir taka is just going to turn the tv off

and then go to grab the blanket and drapes it over senri, before settling onto it himself.

this is fine. it's all good. senri's dead but it's a minor setback. ]

[senri is absolutely fucking dead and taka is cuddling with a corpse

.... okay not really - he wakes up in the middle of the night when he eventually comes to his senses and blinks in confusion bc the last thing he remembered was kasuka being horrifying. it startles him at first but.

taka is next to him.

and unfortunately that immediately distracts him and sets him at ease.

he breathes out a sigh and... shifts so that he can fold himself into taka's side, burying his face in his neck and clinging on as he settles in for sleep all over again.]

[ this is so very bad

when taka wakes up the next morning, he... wants to say he's surprised at this turn of events, but it just keeps fucking happening and also this time he helped instigate it instead of just allowing senri to do it.

senri is so close.

there's a moment where he leans in, and he's so close to pressing a kiss to his temple, but he backs out and just sighs, wondering if he should get up or wait for senri to wake up. ]

[it's very bad.

it's so very bad, and senri is very gay, and that much is confirmed when he wakes up the next morning too. even though he was mad at taka pretty much up until the second that he passed out - he feels so unfortunately at peace when he gets to be next to him just like this. he opens his eyes briefly even though he doesn't lift his head and -

he could have another day without taka. he could even try to find a date for real. he could hang out with the other first years without taka, because they'd make it awkward. he could try to rebuild his life in tokyo.

but so far doing bits and pieces of that hasn't brought him any more peace than this moment.

he doesn't know if taka's awake - but they've done this enough days now that he. is losing the strength to let go. when the person he wants is right in front of him, what is he supposed to do?

so instead he just holds onto a little bit tighter for just a second, and subconsciously tries to press himself against taka a bit more]

[ the problem is that no matter how much time they spend apart during the day, in the end they share a room. taka thinks that maybe, if they weren't partners, it would probably be easier to get over this. not easy, but easier.

instead they have this.

eventually he has to move though. slowly, he shifts, trying his best not to disturb senri too much. he's mostly hoping that he can slip out and keep senri asleep?? ]

[ . . . .

senri thinks about letting taka go again, because maybe he has something to do. but selfishly, he wonders where that would leave him? still alone in their room, holding onto whatever taka's warmth remains in the blanket in the pillow, and unable to move on. he's not sure what he needs to move on but he knows he doesn't have it right now.

(maybe a real desire to move on would be a good start.)

he doesn't let go.

instead he just asks quietly - ]

... five more minutes?

[ ...... oh

well, he doesn't know how to respond to that. the smart thing to do would be to say no, and to stand up and leave the room and do whatever it is that he needs to that isn't being here.

but instead he just wraps his arms around senri and closes his eyes. ]

Just five.

[ . . . right. just five.

senri sighs out a breath at that and tries not to notice how much happier he is just to have taka's arms around him. he presses his face into taka's neck and thinks about just letting sleep take him again but.... he wants to enjoy this moment while he still gets it.

just five minutes.

two pass, just like that. quiet and comfortable.]

... did you miss me at all?

[ they're going to talk about it then.

taka knew they had to; they could only dance around the subject for so long, or else they would bound to get into another fight or... something. ]

... yeah.

[ it's such an understatement that he almost wants to laugh? he can't even sleep in his own bed. ]

[ . . . okay.

for some reason that alone manages to make him feel better and - maybe it shouldn't, because it's mean. he shouldn't want taka to feel any type of sad but.

he closes his eyes tight and nods.]

.... mm, I missed you.

A lot.

... this room was really empty without you.

[ he even slept over at the others' dorms, but he can only do that so many times before yanagi and shion throw him out.

it's bad, because his main urge is still to kiss him. he doesn't. ]

[senri laughs faintly at that, even if he's not actually remembering anything that makes him happy.]

I didn't notice how big my flat actually was until you weren't in it....

[and then he felt very, very much alone. and then he couldn't find a happy medium between not being lonely and spending time with taka.]

London's a big place - it was really fun. I met a lot of people but... I still had the most fun when it was just you and me.

[ he really wants to believe that

but he remembers all of the social media posts, and he knows that senri lies but it was a lot harder to pick out the lies when taka isn't with him in person. ]

You dated.

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